cold

okay so i needed a blog where i could actually post things
and not have my sister find it
she means well, but sometimes i'd just rather no one i know know about me
you know?
okay that was confusing, im sorry

im sick and tired and i'm just so confused about life
why am i incapable of loving someone for more than like two months
as soon as they're mine, im tired of them
like why
god im impossible

then there's me being a fatass
i mean they warned me at work that working there makes people gain
but i didn't really believe them
bringing my own snacks/lunches from now on
can't afford to be in the 90s i just cant

its like 8 30 and i think im going to go back to bed, despite sleeping until 1
whatever
at least i did chem today

okay goodbye

wait no here are some things that i think are beautiful ok

like if the point of life to find love

and i suck at being IN love

then whats the point of my life

you know???